Beautiful Illusions

Fann is soooo pretty! (sorry, but i really haveto gush over her) Although she's like in her 30s, she still looks fantabulous man! all thanks to the products that she endorses. Since her "zai jian yin guang lan to yang guang lie che to jin zhen tou til now...like never age a bit. And qi yiwu is quite a hottie ( I can't believe he is nt Singaporean!) and I.....am being such a TV addict. still enjoying the slacking days before i start work though. :)

packed up my room for a while today. i sure have a lot of stuff in hall man... and as always, i looked through the cards and letters and notes from everyone. It's always nice to re-read such stuff again coz they bring you back to all the different times in your life, how you were dealing with different things, whether you're happy or sad or angry... it's a nice feeling. Most of the time, i guess, people are thinking about the future (esp at our age). so it's nice to be able to spend some time looking back before moving ahead again. who knows when i'll have the free time to look over these stuff again?

i came across some stuff that zy gave me. and read through some of the letters we wrote each other. All i can say is that things are so different now. it's quite a pity that we didn't carry on to become good friends after that. i see friends around me going along fine with their ex and i wonder how that is possible. is it coz i'm not mature enough to handle it? if not, then what went wrong? I guess we ended on a really lousy note. I guess i must have hurt him really badly. but looking back now, would he still feel hurt by me? i guess not. he's moved on and i'm glad. :)

with every (failed) relationship, you learn something new about yourself (and your ex) and what you r really looking for. so that's not such a bad thing, isn't it? acknowledging that sometimes, it's just impossible and tiresome to make things work and u've gotta move on, without looking back.