Shakespeare Sonnet 47

Betwixt mine eye and heart a league is took,
And each doth good turns now unto the other:
When that mine eye is famish'd for a look,
Or heart in love with sighs himself doth smother,
With my love's picture then my eye doth feast
And to the painted banquet bids my heart;
Another time mine eye is my heart's guest
And in his thoughts of love doth share a part:
So, either by thy picture or my love,
Thyself away art resent still with me;
For thou not farther than my thoughts canst move,
And I am still with them and they with thee;
Or, if they sleep, thy picture in my sight
Awakes my heart to heart's and eye's delight.

it's been a long time since the girls went clubbing - full force.

I was trying to fight an iminent cold bug.

Going in to a crowded club and ingesting myself with toxic is not exactly the brightest idea.

It's another rainy weekend -

and i'm just home alone, staring out of the window,

with a thousand thoughts running through my head

I wonder if people believe that Bollywood dance taught by an Indian would be more authentic, or Yoga, for that matter

I just went back to gym after 3 months of inactivity.

Had wanted to join the class,

but the instructor was dressed in leopard prints and looked like she's just escaped from the wild.

She had tiger striped hair to match.

I'm usually not this critical....

but this dance class is something I cannot bear to watch.

I miss naila and julian.

some nightmares, you never seem to be able to get rid of.

Ever since I missed the damn flight

I've been having recurring nightmares of missing flights in different manner:

I missed the boarding time cos I went to grab something to eat

I missed the boarding time cos I was stuck in traffic

I missed the boarding time, even when it's a ferry and we're at the terminal.

It got even more ridiculous last night.

Me and bro were heading out somewhere.

We checked in luggages, went through security,

were told there was a flight delay...

and instead of staying put at the waiting area,

we went home!

all the while thinking that we will have enough time in between.

What were we thinking?!?!?

It's not even possible to leave the airport and just hop into a cab after we've gone through immigration.

I woke up feeling damn lost and angry at myself

and took a damn long and hot shower

and then a few things dawned upon me:

dreams hardly become reality

and if you missed the right flight,

you may never find another one.

go for the kill

The temperatures are rising

I suppose winter is really coming to an end.

It's raining again, pretty heavily...

Makes me very reluctant to go back to work when I should.

This week had been extremely taxing - physically and emotionally

I could not bring myself to work past 8 pm and I start to lose focus by 5

Also losing sleep cos of the uninvited visitors at night.

I'd get up at 4,5am in the morning, stay up for an hour or so

all the while bugged by the buzzing in my ear, and the stings on my arms and legs.

I finally bought a spray yesterday and it came in handy.

I killed visitor of the night, who attacked my palm and my cheeks,

and finally got a good night's sleep.

The announcement made on Tuesday morning was depressing, as well as shocking.

All along we were assured and reassured that we will brave the weather together, but this is apparently not the case.

I probably love my colleagues more than the work I do - good relationships make working more bearable.

Being at work on tuesday was not as pleasant. All the textbook cases of how layoffs affect staff morale, it's all true. I couldn't make myself focus at work, and didn't want to stay up to finish up the work.

It's good that jason asked me out to grab a bite and drinks. Beirut at lkf had this middle eastern mystery feel to it, with lotsa gwailos drinking and smoking shishas, and looking so happy.

My thoughts kept running back to the scenes this morning. Even in such a relaxed atmosphere, I couldn't let go. It hurt to see them leave - the ones who are truly kind to me.

I asked jason if it's bad, unprofessional of me to let my emotions run haywire in the office, and he said it's fine, i just need to let it out of my system.

And that, i did,

coupled with goldfish eyes to work this morning.

rainy monday blues

As I looked out of my window,

part of the peak is covered with mist.

the swimming pool opposite sounds its announcement to get people of out the pool before it closes.

I have just done a pore minimising mask, and the sk2 treatment mask and watched 3 episodes of csi.

how's that for a lazy monday? ;)

Friday was equally lazy - I stayed home and cleaned up my apt.

This place gets neglected most of the time

since I spend more hours in the office than I do at home.

It's great to be 'home' (if i can call this home)

and get some me-tim, do some thinking through, or not thinking through.

Caught 'he's just not that into you' on thursday night - a good chick flick - just what I needed.

The same thoughts on love and relationship circled.

I finally wrote back

and I know we have the same emotions running whenever 突然好想你 plays.

The skies have finally cleared up,

but why don't I see any rainbows?

vices

We are the vices team.

Just done with one alcohol report,

and right onto a cigarette proposal.

And I thought I finally have some days to breathe....