I hate Public finance....

Had my public finance paper today. Thought i was rather prepared for the paper... other than the fact that i skipped most of the lectures and tutorials for the second half of the course... BUT... the paper was not what i expected. Different from past yr papers which i did religiously try to do. PLUS, i was suffering from a tummy ache. I wonder what is it this sem...for each exam i had so far.. my tummy never treated me well. All my years of going for exams... this has to happen to my final semester of examinations. PLUS, there was a girl who came late (who distracted me since i was sitting in front) AND she left in the middle of the exam coz she wasn't feeling well and the invigilators created a commotion (which again distracted me) and even spoke about what they are going to do with her, how one of the teacher brought her to the medical centre...blah blah blah (WHICH i irritably shush them up). I mean, they are invigilators for goodness sake! fancy them making so much commotion when other students are still taking the paper.

So all in all, it was a very distracting and hm... painful paper to sit through. Think i screwed up the second part of the paper totally. Oh well, dun think i'll fail. just won't do well. Sheesh.

In lib leeweenam again, i can almost feel the brainwaves from all the people studying here. NTU students are really hardworking... i wonder where that places me... too slack too slack...Oh, learnt a new game today. Yahoo! Pool! ok...very sua ku i know... it turns out to be a really fun game. played with Mr. Goh (who happens to have a paper tmr). Think he gets his motivation to study by beating me time and again at the game. And when i can finally make the chance to win, my white ball goes in as well. damn.

Found out from mish that a friend already got a notification informing her abt her successful application to a 1st round interview for SIA. Can't help but feel like shooting myself in the brain. ( I felt like that many times today) coz i had the intention to apply but couldn't do so coz the SIA mailbox was full and i couldn't get my application in before the deadline. Oh well, things probably happen for a reason. Sometimes, we rush into things too fast. Impulse. We buy things on impulse, eat on impluse, indulge ourselves impulsively. Feel strongly for something, also on impulse. Probably why i wanted to apply was also on impulse too. Just didn't want to miss the chance and regret not doing it...

like why pp buy toto...coz they dun want to shoot themselves in the brain when their number comes out one day....

Watashi...Anata...Idunno

Had my first exam for my final sem.... nihongo no exam desu. Also the 1st exam in so many sems that i actually got nervous before the paper. *actually went to the loo with an upset stomach* Now i truly understood the meaning of butterflies in the stomach. I've got 2 more papers to go til it's all officially finished and done with. Made some silly mistakes in the exam but i guess it's alright... should be better than my disastrous jap oral test with the se mi mi teacher and his fake japanese accent.

Anyway, back to the final exams. Have taken numerous exams throughout my life... as a typical sg kid. Most of the times, I'm not exactly nervous coz I always believe that whatever i have learnt will somehow miraculously come to me when i sit for the paper. Moreover, it is just the exams. I'm not trying to sound obnoxious here. but i just feel that after so many exams, does what we learn from the books really apply to the world beyond that of the school compound? It's true that we need to have good grades and a nice, fully certified piece of paper. But what's out there waiting for us? It's a scary thought and i try not to think about it.

Finally got my green apple mini! and the engraving was elegantly done! *took abt 3 min to find where it was though...* Now i need to find a nice cover for my new toy. Anyone knows where to get?