GRRrrrrRRrrr........

I am feeling Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Is EQ and PR skills that difficult to acquire?

yes, they call the shots, so they can have it their way. but i'm sure there are better ways to arrange things so everyone will be happy?

and yes, i do agree that you can't please everybody. but at least please some of them?

so logically thinking, if i'm not one of those they want to make happy, then i'm probably not important.

and if i'm not important, then why include me in the first place?

so why include me in the first place when i'm not important? so will it matter if i make my presence felt or not? maybe i'm just there to make up the numbers, it's probably more of an obligation. a must do, instead of want to do.

which i truly hope it is not.

which i hope there realllllllllly is something irreconcilable such that the present arrangement is realllllllllly surellllllllly the ABSOLUTE necessary.

i want to be there with a truly happy heart, not one which carries blessings and yet bogged down by immense upset-ness.

but ultimately, I know i'd only be happy when that one decision is made.

Yes, i can be really difficult.

Cage me. Roarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.