Pierced

I did the most amazing thing on myself this morning -

All dressed up and good to go to work,

I realised i forgot to wear the ear ring on my helix.

So, I poked around for 5-10 minutes,

trying to get the ear ring in

until I got fed up.

The piercing has miraculously decided to heal overnight.

So I gave it one hard jab to get it through

Next thing i saw

BLOOD.

Ok, breathe.

Got it through the front,

now gotta stab it right across to the back.

Poked around a bit more

a little bit harder

and the next second later

my vision blurred

I felt nauseous

and wanted to puke

checked my watch

damn. 9.05am

I'm late for work.

Then I collapsed,

and hugged the toilet bowl
and tried to throw up.

I broke into cold sweat,

trembling.

And I passed out,

for a good 15 min.

9.20am

Had to call in sick.

Please don't ever try this at home, alone.

Hurt like hell, and I thought i was going to die.

fear or bravery?

heard over the radio the unfortunate news that Ishi has left this world.

I thought I heard it wrong,

until his pictures were all over the papers.

It's sad... he's still so young, and multi-talented indeed.

Though we're only hi-bye friends at Modernjazz, he did appear to be such a cheerful and happy-go-lucky guy, and a charmer too.

had a discussion with Mr. Goh today about this, and he commented that such people must be very brave to take their lives, that it is not easy to take your own life away.

I think NOT.

For me, bravery/courage would mean doing something you are genuinely afraid of. e.g. sky diving, eating cockroaches, and the like. The activity should not have to hurt the people around you.

I think the act is silly, and irresponsible, but who am I to say right... I'm not driven to the edge of no return yet...these people.. are probably not in the right state of mind to think logically already.

their main objective is to just .. leave everything behind?

I don't think there's anything which cannot be resolved... life is simply too precious....

Your thought of wanting to die is countered by so many other people's thoughts that want you to be still alive.

so please, cherish life, live happy, and believe... that things will get better.

Watch your back

Watch your thoughts; they become words
Watch your words; they become actions
Watch your actions; they become habits
Watch your habits; they become character
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny

Don't mess with Mr. Goh

Over the years, I have learnt not to mess with Mr. Goh although I must say he's possibly the most good-natured guy I've ever met. I have seen him blow his top less than 5 times (most often on the soccer field but I only watched him play soccer for like, 2 times in his entire soccer history).

and yes, he has been very tolerant of all my nonsense too. putting up with my 'xiao jie pi qi'.

but tonight, he reallly got MADDDDD.

It all happened like this...

After watching death note, we dropped by the citibank booth cos Mr goh wanted to sign up for some cards and this ah beng looking person served us, happily asked for all the details, told mr goh to send in his cpf form la, what not la.... chatted me up with the 'halloween@zouk' topic...

and we happily went for dinner.

when mr goh still looks like a good nice puppy.....

UNTIL HE FOUND THAT HIS IC IS NOT WITH HIM.

fwah. HOT LIAO.

i told him the citibank guy didn't return his IC to him. so we called up that fella, who insisted that there's no way the IC could still be at the booth, cos if it was, his colleagues would have seen it.

Fwah. even more HOT.

the thought of having to go through the procedures (going to make police report, make time to go to immigration centre to have a new IC done, take new IC photos...etc etc) and the thought of another 100 bucks or so flying away... After spending money to fix the 'lobang' on the car... Fwah... HOT to the max.

until i sat like a little rabbit next to him. watching him speed off on the highway, not saying anything, 'machiam' the silent killer. And my toes curled. my mouth zipped. my fists clenched. praying that on the way back to the citibank booth, he wouldn't meet with another accident again.

Heng the booth still there when we reached ah!

and INDEED, the IC was still on the photocopier when the fella took it to zap. I clearly rememebered he didn't return it to us. Heng the workers were still clearing the booth.

I could hear the 'thud' sound on mr goh's heart as he finally put down a big stone from his heart (Xiong1 kou3 fang4 xia4 yi1 li4 da4 shi2).

(kids, don't do this at home, or anywhere.....)

to the citibank fella.

my bf is a MONSTER.
but he was nice enough to buy some cakes for the workers who helped find his IC. Niceeee...

It only takes a spark...

It only takes a spark...to get the fire going... and soon all those around... can warm up in its glowing...

such a hectic week, tmr being the last day of CommunicAsia. After the drama on Tuesday, wednesday and thurs is much more peaceful. and i definitely feel more encouraged when my boss said I did a really GOOD JOB, really needed such a pat on the back. A pay raise would be like a two thumbs and toe thumbs up. hur.

and THANKS girls for your smses. :)

i'm feeling better now.. after some retail theraphy. GRIN. Mango sale has officially started today! Yesterday was opened only to mng card members. so me and mae went during lunch today. heehee.

madness. Boyfriends really shouldn't be allowed into MNG during sale period. (1) It is already so freaking crowded (2) you can't see your gf wearing the stuff and give your valuable comments (3) if you want to pay for your gf's items, wait only at the cashier. The lady can definitely handle rummaging through the messy stack of clothing if she tries hard enough and wants it bad enough. period.

anyways, CommunicAsia is really a very exciting telecommunications show!! so many new gadgets! phones! cameras! bluetooth stuff! I'm gonna take lotsa photos tmr, hopefully... if i can find the time.

but today we tried something really exciting. it's a bluetooth ring. so basically, you wear the ring-like thing and you'd be able to dial and have phone conversations without takign out your mobile handset. It works by vibration... converting vibration into sound waves which will be recognised by your ear drum. FASCINATING stuff. but mostly prototypes. the future is really full of unlimited potential for technology to develop... and i'm looking forward to it.

my blog is evil!

Patience...

A man observed a woman in the grocery store with a three-year-old girl in her basket. As they passed the cookie section, the little girl asked for cookies and her mother told her no. The little girl immediately began to whine and fuss, and the mother said quietly, "Now Monica, we just have half of the aisles left to go through -- don't be upset. It won't be long."
Soon, they came to the candy aisle and the little girl began to shout for candy. When told she couldn't have any, she began to cry. The mother said softly, "There, there, Monica, don't cry -- only two more aisles to go and then we'll be checking out."

When they got to the checkout stand, the little girls immediately began to clamor for gum and burst into a terrible tantrum upon discovering there'd be no gum purchased. The mother patiently said, "Monica, we'll be through this checkout stand in five minutes and then you can go home and have a nice nap."

The man followed them out to the parking lot and stopped the woman to compliment her. "I couldn't help noticing how patient you were with little Monica," he began.

The mother sighed and replied, "Oh, no. I'm Monica -- my little girl's name is Tammy."

>>>> I hope this will not happen to me man. I think I’ll probably stuff something into her mouth to stop her from being a nuisance. Or buy a muzzle for her and put her on a leash and threaten to whip her if she makes so much noise.

I always know there is this violent streak in me. Keke

Happening saturday

It was quite a happening saturday and i'm back in the office today on a sunday to meet the surveyors and pass them stuff. anyway, last night was quite fun filled. finished work at 8 and went liang seah zi char to have dinner with mr goh since we were both very hungry and didn't want to go anywhere far. so there goes the planned romantic dinner for the night. shopped around bugis after that but didn't manage to get anything. we were arguing over what kind of office wear is appropriate to buy for work. he insists i shld get like shirts but i told him that don't have to be so formal and can get some nice blouses instead. so, i've decided to do my own shopping today without him. :)

met Hianzee at hotel intercontinental! and the funny thing was, we were both there to use the hotel toilet. *grins* It's nice bumping into friends when you're out. coz i feel like, there's some kind of fate thing involved, if you know what i mean. not those arranged kind of outing, but just there and then we meet and have a pleasant surprise. ;) serendipity.

went to geylang to have supper after that with jem, eric, mw and ty. was rather concussed then but felt that i shouldn't waste my saturday away. Not that i enjoyed the company very much or that i was hungry but most importantly, coz i want to spend time with mr goh.

I guess when you're working, you'll really start to prioritise and decide how to put ur free time to the best use.

Lesson number 2.

Bag of potatoes

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One day, a student asked his Master, " Sir, it is difficult to forgive and forget those who have wronged me, because they keep coming back to huant me." The master said to the student, "Whenever you cannot forget an incident that someone has hurt you before, you put a potato into ur haversack."The student agreed affirmatively.

3 months later, his load of potatoes got heavier and heavier. He got more frustrated and tired. Eventually, he even hurt his back. He asked the master again, "What can i learn from carrying all these potatoes? Now i'm no different from a dead man. I'll never forgive what u have made me done" With that, another potato was added and he broke his neck and died.

"You stupid fool." the master thought to himself.
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Well, i'm sure all my friends are all quick enough to catch that. :)

in case some didn't, the moral of the story was that when you are able to leave everything behind and move forward, you will not be burdened by the past. well, more specifically, the not-so-welcomed past.

I've moved back home. :) and i'm glad that i've managed to throw away things which i have kept til now. things i should have thrown earlier since they don't matter now. the memories are still there, though not very vivid... but the physical stuff are gone. together with the emotional burden i guess.

and talk about forgive and forget... i think most pp forgive...but nvr forget. it may not be a bad thing afterall. not forgetting is not the same as bearing a grudge. sometimes, the memory is just there. cached in the mind. waiting to be uncovered some day. but somehow for me...i seem to forget quite a lot of stuff. i read a letter which hr wrote me while unpacking the stuff at home... there she mentioned about an incident after prelims (which i really do not remember, so no worries, hr!) Another one was when i found the "yoke" list after like 4 yrs! kept between pages of a book. point is... i'm scared that i'm forgetting too many things. things which are important to me and have definitely left a deep impression in my mind before. i think i live and i forget sometimes.

so, conclusion is, i'm going to stay around people who are important to me, to be there for them, there with them. in that case, i can't possibly forget right? i know it sounds very weird and probably doesn't make sense. should probably go to bed now and hopefully, i won't forget what's happened today.

Lessons from economics

Lessons from economists:

As Tullock puts it, "The people who are successful in moving up the hierarchy are those who are most likely to choose career motivated action rather than action motivated by other things. "

Johnson:" Economics is essentially a social science, concerned to further understanding of society by the application of scientific methods of analysis and research to the economic aspects of society's activities."

Sigh, studying policies can be so interesting.... but why do I have to wait til today to start studying it...

Nevertheless, I hope i can be a good economist. :)

Perception

Perception (definition): Insight, intuition, or knowledge gained by perceiving.

Some things are not so bad when you look at it with a different perspective. I'm talking about me whining about the damage done to my mini ipod. At least i didn't spoil the whole device. at least the lcd screen is still intact. at least the music still plays fine. at least i've learnt another lesson. :) I've learnt that shit happens. and i've learnt that engineers are very practical people.
I am emotional.

and I'm not going to drop the mini again. :(

Lesson of the Day

Everything is a double edged sword.