It was quite a happening saturday and i'm back in the office today on a sunday to meet the surveyors and pass them stuff. anyway, last night was quite fun filled. finished work at 8 and went liang seah zi char to have dinner with mr goh since we were both very hungry and didn't want to go anywhere far. so there goes the planned romantic dinner for the night. shopped around bugis after that but didn't manage to get anything. we were arguing over what kind of office wear is appropriate to buy for work. he insists i shld get like shirts but i told him that don't have to be so formal and can get some nice blouses instead. so, i've decided to do my own shopping today without him. :)
met Hianzee at hotel intercontinental! and the funny thing was, we were both there to use the hotel toilet. *grins* It's nice bumping into friends when you're out. coz i feel like, there's some kind of fate thing involved, if you know what i mean. not those arranged kind of outing, but just there and then we meet and have a pleasant surprise. ;) serendipity.
went to geylang to have supper after that with jem, eric, mw and ty. was rather concussed then but felt that i shouldn't waste my saturday away. Not that i enjoyed the company very much or that i was hungry but most importantly, coz i want to spend time with mr goh.
I guess when you're working, you'll really start to prioritise and decide how to put ur free time to the best use.
Lesson number 2.
Sunday, May 29, 2005
Saturday, May 28, 2005
The Great Singapore Sale
It's been a hectic week for me. Thought i was going to have a 4 day work 1st initially but surprise surprise, I have to work over the weekend too coz of the Sg Sale proj my company is doing for STB. not that I am complaining. I really enjoy what i am doing right now... and i've yet to get sick of it. managing the proj has been fun so far. I get to visit most of the shopping malls in sg and i know which shops are having the most discounts and so on and so forth. Done some window shopping too and probably will go and do some real shopping later before the temp workers get back to the office.
so now, i'm just chilling out in the office. listening to the music which karsten has in his ipod. Real chill out songs. the room seemed colder when he started playing them and i just felt like having a cup of hot cocoa to go along.
finally met up with mr goh after a hectic week. but i did the most stupid thing. See, he offered to fetch me to work today coz he said he'll be going back to hall to collect some stuff and will drop by to bring me to work and go fix the comp after that. Happened that he woke up late and could only pick me up to work. and i have to be in the office by 12pm coz the temp workers will be coming by to collect their materials. so when mr goh reached my place at 11 40, i screamed at him. Well, not exactly scream...but my tone was obviously not very nice. and i regretted the moment i said that. we haven't met for a week and that is the first thing i have to do to him. So, mr goh... i'm really sorry for screaming at you this morning. I guess i was pressed for time coz i thought the people will come in on time. but surprise surprise, they were late as usual. so heck, i'd rather show more care and concern towards people i love than towards my work.
First lesson learnt from working. time to do some shopping now. :)
so now, i'm just chilling out in the office. listening to the music which karsten has in his ipod. Real chill out songs. the room seemed colder when he started playing them and i just felt like having a cup of hot cocoa to go along.
finally met up with mr goh after a hectic week. but i did the most stupid thing. See, he offered to fetch me to work today coz he said he'll be going back to hall to collect some stuff and will drop by to bring me to work and go fix the comp after that. Happened that he woke up late and could only pick me up to work. and i have to be in the office by 12pm coz the temp workers will be coming by to collect their materials. so when mr goh reached my place at 11 40, i screamed at him. Well, not exactly scream...but my tone was obviously not very nice. and i regretted the moment i said that. we haven't met for a week and that is the first thing i have to do to him. So, mr goh... i'm really sorry for screaming at you this morning. I guess i was pressed for time coz i thought the people will come in on time. but surprise surprise, they were late as usual. so heck, i'd rather show more care and concern towards people i love than towards my work.
First lesson learnt from working. time to do some shopping now. :)
Monday, May 23, 2005
Revenge is sweet
Papa roach attacked me and my mother this morning while we were having breakfast in the coffee shop. I screamed so loudly that the hdb dwellers might have mistaken that for a fire alarm. :) grins. no wonder revenge is sweet. papa roach must be glad that he made a fool out of me.
will be starting my first day of work tmr. hopefully everything goes well. the lower right part of my eye has been twitching for the past 3 days. anyone can tell me what that means?
will be starting my first day of work tmr. hopefully everything goes well. the lower right part of my eye has been twitching for the past 3 days. anyone can tell me what that means?
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
do u believe in karma?
i've always believed in karma. what goes around comes around. If you treat people nice, other people will treat u nice. if you don't treat people nice, u'd probably meet your match someday. but who can be sure that it's all due to karma and not just a thing about meeting the wrong people and having a lousy day? some people are nice to everyone, have done nothing wrong, never sha ren fang huo and yet they too have their worst days. not to mention those who have done evil and still live. yeah...you get my point. so how many people can really prove that karma exists?
I proudly exclaim that i can.
this morning, i killed a baby cockroach the first thing in the morning when i went to brush my teeth. I was feeling proud of it since i've always feared such creepy crawlies and have never ever attempted to kill them myself. But given this morning's circumstances, I had no choice but to kill the baby cockroach. if not, it will grow into a big cockcroach and come back to huant me again. so, again, i felt proud of myself to overcome my fear. machiam like those participants in Fear Factor.
about half an hour ago, i got my retribution. Apparently, Mama cockcroach found out that i murdered baby cockcroach and plotted to kill me by tonight. So, it waited until mr goh left the room for dinner, when i was alone in the room, when the door was conveniently open, when i was unarmed, unaware and totally not prepared for the attack that it was about to launch on me. THEN it spreaded its horrifying wings and, like a kamikaze pilot, flew at high speed towards my face. I truly believe that if it was to land on my face at that instant, i would really be dead. Fortunately, (i believe i have done some good deeds too) I heard the flapping of its wings (yes, it was that loud) and in a milisecond, i jumped out of the sofa and ran towards the edge of the room. The room is not very big, so i was still in close proximity with the avenger. I screamed, naturally. and to those people who were unfortunate to hear my screams, i apologise.
so with the killer instinct in me, i decided to kill the Mama cockcroach too. not so easy as i thought. and it cleverly went into hiding, traumatising me for another 30 minutes or more before mr goh came to the rescue and found its hiding place. During the period when i was alone, i felt really alone, helpless and i thought of baby cockcroach.
now, i'm thinking of mama cockcroach and brave mr goh. I just hope karma is not all that true all the time.
"ah men"
I proudly exclaim that i can.
this morning, i killed a baby cockroach the first thing in the morning when i went to brush my teeth. I was feeling proud of it since i've always feared such creepy crawlies and have never ever attempted to kill them myself. But given this morning's circumstances, I had no choice but to kill the baby cockroach. if not, it will grow into a big cockcroach and come back to huant me again. so, again, i felt proud of myself to overcome my fear. machiam like those participants in Fear Factor.
about half an hour ago, i got my retribution. Apparently, Mama cockcroach found out that i murdered baby cockcroach and plotted to kill me by tonight. So, it waited until mr goh left the room for dinner, when i was alone in the room, when the door was conveniently open, when i was unarmed, unaware and totally not prepared for the attack that it was about to launch on me. THEN it spreaded its horrifying wings and, like a kamikaze pilot, flew at high speed towards my face. I truly believe that if it was to land on my face at that instant, i would really be dead. Fortunately, (i believe i have done some good deeds too) I heard the flapping of its wings (yes, it was that loud) and in a milisecond, i jumped out of the sofa and ran towards the edge of the room. The room is not very big, so i was still in close proximity with the avenger. I screamed, naturally. and to those people who were unfortunate to hear my screams, i apologise.
so with the killer instinct in me, i decided to kill the Mama cockcroach too. not so easy as i thought. and it cleverly went into hiding, traumatising me for another 30 minutes or more before mr goh came to the rescue and found its hiding place. During the period when i was alone, i felt really alone, helpless and i thought of baby cockcroach.
now, i'm thinking of mama cockcroach and brave mr goh. I just hope karma is not all that true all the time.
"ah men"
what does your birthday mean?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoesyourbirthdatemeanquiz
try this...recommended by huiru. quite accurate for me. haha
Your Birthdate: March 30
Your birthday on the 30th day of the month shows individual self-expression is necessary for your happiness. You tend to have a good way of expressing yourself with words, certainly in a manner that is clear and understandable. You have a good chance of success in fields requiring skill with words. You can be very dramatic in your presentation and you may be a good actor or a natural mimic. You have a vivid imagination that can assist you in becoming a good writer or story-teller. Strong in your opinions, you always tend to think you are on the right side of an issue. There may be a tendency to scatter your energies and have a lot of loose ends in your work. You may have significant artistic talent and be very creative.
try this...recommended by huiru. quite accurate for me. haha
Your Birthdate: March 30
Your birthday on the 30th day of the month shows individual self-expression is necessary for your happiness. You tend to have a good way of expressing yourself with words, certainly in a manner that is clear and understandable. You have a good chance of success in fields requiring skill with words. You can be very dramatic in your presentation and you may be a good actor or a natural mimic. You have a vivid imagination that can assist you in becoming a good writer or story-teller. Strong in your opinions, you always tend to think you are on the right side of an issue. There may be a tendency to scatter your energies and have a lot of loose ends in your work. You may have significant artistic talent and be very creative.
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
humans eat everything and anything....
went to chinatown to have tian ji zhou (aka frog's leg porridge) over the weekend. I think the location is extremely strategic. directly opposite CK departmental store which allows the customers to have a cool breeze of air-conditioning before going to the hot, steamy coffeeshop. and it's located at a busy junction, so the people walking by never stops. they basically flood the area every minute. :)
before we went there, we were actually at bugis and i had my first bite of the rotiboy bun. The magic of a single, soft, crispy, hot bun. hm...yummy! and my sandals broke coz mr. goh ALWAYS step on my feet. anyways, i had to buy a pair of sandals on the spot and went x:odus to get a pair of pretty slippers! it's called trina sandals or something...yah... x:odus actually names its different series of sandals....actually wanted to get a pair of flip flops with a dragonfly on it..looks really pretty but impractical. :( confirm the dragonfly will drop out. still remembered the starfish sandals the sweetie girls got me for my birthday. think i'm a sucker for pretty sandals! x:odus has really preeeetty shoes... check it out.
then with my new sandals....we walked. and walked. and walked. from bugis...to arab street...to bras basah (where we took a short break) to city hall...to boat quay ....and finally...somehow, we reached chinatown. phew. practising for the big walk (competitive category) this weekend.
just kidding...... :)
before we went there, we were actually at bugis and i had my first bite of the rotiboy bun. The magic of a single, soft, crispy, hot bun. hm...yummy! and my sandals broke coz mr. goh ALWAYS step on my feet. anyways, i had to buy a pair of sandals on the spot and went x:odus to get a pair of pretty slippers! it's called trina sandals or something...yah... x:odus actually names its different series of sandals....actually wanted to get a pair of flip flops with a dragonfly on it..looks really pretty but impractical. :( confirm the dragonfly will drop out. still remembered the starfish sandals the sweetie girls got me for my birthday. think i'm a sucker for pretty sandals! x:odus has really preeeetty shoes... check it out.
then with my new sandals....we walked. and walked. and walked. from bugis...to arab street...to bras basah (where we took a short break) to city hall...to boat quay ....and finally...somehow, we reached chinatown. phew. practising for the big walk (competitive category) this weekend.
just kidding...... :)
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
damsel in distress
it's been a while... had quite a packed weekend. eventful i guess. first was the sweeties meeting which i mentioned. then was the sia interview the next day. here's a lowdown about what happened on saturday morning...
mr goh volunteered to chauffeur me to changi sia training centre. really appreciate that, gave me moral support too! and the interview was at a ghostly hour of 0840, haven't woke up before the sun does for such a long time! so there i was, together with like hundred plus other girls, starry eyed, all hoping for a chance to be one of the icons of singapore. machiam like american idols, seriously.
so we were divided into groups of ten for the first round of the interview. made a few friends and one of them was a st nicks cum NJ cum NTU senior! (whom i have nvr seen b4, vanessa's batch) the world is really small. she was really nice, and this was her second time for the interview (she got through 2nd round btw). so 1st round.... i was the first to be asked to give a brief intro about myself. i fumbled, mumbled and probably made a mess. those who spoke after me were detailed, confident and obviously so much better prepared than me. so i thought, that's it... 1st round will kenna kick out already.
10 min later, a man came into the room and said, " only two of you are selected in this group. for those whose name are not called, thank you for coming. the two selected pls follow me to another room." TWO! what are my chances... but i was lucky enough to be given a second chance! :) so i was determined to do much better for the one to one interview later. i was determined to speak confidently and not fumble. but i was disappointed. i guess even more so since i was not given the reason why i wasn't chosen. i thought i performed better at the second interview but obviously not good enough. so for the entire day, i felt inadequate. my ego was thoroughly trashed and i kept wondering what was wrong with myself.
thanks to all my friends who made me feel special again. :) i think i should be happy that i managed to get to the second round too. shows that at least i look somehow like a probable SIA girl. i think i will try again after i've gained some working experience. perhaps i'd be better prepared and equipped for it.
anyways, went out to town after that. met up with the hall people. dinner at marches. went to kbox lounge to chill out. quite a nice place leh. got live band there singing soothing chinese/eng pop. got espn showing also (good for guys who are bored by the male singers) and also a small pool table. those which u dong two 1 dollar coins inside one (good for amatuer players like me). and watched Kingdom of Heaven. quite a boring show, though controversial subject.
Then came mothers' day. had a good time with mum, bro, sis and the kids. we found out that amos vacuumed his hamster the very same day! poor hamster! axel(the elder bro) was vacuuming the floor and when he was done, he wanted to go turn off the main power. Then, famous amos went to vacuum the hamster. i believe he must be very amused when he saw the hamster being sucked towards the tube and i am sure he never meant to suck it in. but it did went in. So...the two boys were traumatised and cried. and my sis scolded them too. we had a good laugh over it. I guess me and my brother have to be blamed somehow coz whenever they stayed over and we vacuumed the floor, we would try to suck their skin also. and it was really amusing.... heh.
mr goh volunteered to chauffeur me to changi sia training centre. really appreciate that, gave me moral support too! and the interview was at a ghostly hour of 0840, haven't woke up before the sun does for such a long time! so there i was, together with like hundred plus other girls, starry eyed, all hoping for a chance to be one of the icons of singapore. machiam like american idols, seriously.
so we were divided into groups of ten for the first round of the interview. made a few friends and one of them was a st nicks cum NJ cum NTU senior! (whom i have nvr seen b4, vanessa's batch) the world is really small. she was really nice, and this was her second time for the interview (she got through 2nd round btw). so 1st round.... i was the first to be asked to give a brief intro about myself. i fumbled, mumbled and probably made a mess. those who spoke after me were detailed, confident and obviously so much better prepared than me. so i thought, that's it... 1st round will kenna kick out already.
10 min later, a man came into the room and said, " only two of you are selected in this group. for those whose name are not called, thank you for coming. the two selected pls follow me to another room." TWO! what are my chances... but i was lucky enough to be given a second chance! :) so i was determined to do much better for the one to one interview later. i was determined to speak confidently and not fumble. but i was disappointed. i guess even more so since i was not given the reason why i wasn't chosen. i thought i performed better at the second interview but obviously not good enough. so for the entire day, i felt inadequate. my ego was thoroughly trashed and i kept wondering what was wrong with myself.
thanks to all my friends who made me feel special again. :) i think i should be happy that i managed to get to the second round too. shows that at least i look somehow like a probable SIA girl. i think i will try again after i've gained some working experience. perhaps i'd be better prepared and equipped for it.
anyways, went out to town after that. met up with the hall people. dinner at marches. went to kbox lounge to chill out. quite a nice place leh. got live band there singing soothing chinese/eng pop. got espn showing also (good for guys who are bored by the male singers) and also a small pool table. those which u dong two 1 dollar coins inside one (good for amatuer players like me). and watched Kingdom of Heaven. quite a boring show, though controversial subject.
Then came mothers' day. had a good time with mum, bro, sis and the kids. we found out that amos vacuumed his hamster the very same day! poor hamster! axel(the elder bro) was vacuuming the floor and when he was done, he wanted to go turn off the main power. Then, famous amos went to vacuum the hamster. i believe he must be very amused when he saw the hamster being sucked towards the tube and i am sure he never meant to suck it in. but it did went in. So...the two boys were traumatised and cried. and my sis scolded them too. we had a good laugh over it. I guess me and my brother have to be blamed somehow coz whenever they stayed over and we vacuumed the floor, we would try to suck their skin also. and it was really amusing.... heh.
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
Saturday, May 07, 2005
chomp chomp chomp
I had a lovely evening. :) met up with the sweeties for dinner at chomp chomp to celebrate mich's and zee's bday! the food was nice! and i actually finished a gigantic jug of sugar cane juice! it was really gigantic man....machiam those jugs of alcohol sold in clubs. i have no idea why i was so thirsty too. then went to brownbox for lotsa coffee and cakes. totally sinful but blissful at the same time.
and we've decided to meet up more regularly! yeah! and the long awaited hotel stay is finally going to be realised soon. it's amazing how we always nvr run out of topics to talk about during sweeties outings. an overnight stay would be excellent for pillow talk! can't wait....
sweeties, pls upload the pictures soon!!
and we've decided to meet up more regularly! yeah! and the long awaited hotel stay is finally going to be realised soon. it's amazing how we always nvr run out of topics to talk about during sweeties outings. an overnight stay would be excellent for pillow talk! can't wait....
sweeties, pls upload the pictures soon!!
Thursday, May 05, 2005
A pleasant surprise
received a belated birthday gift from chongmeng today. Lovely lovely mini ipod cover! (pictures below) was exactly the one i saw on the apple website but not sold in singapore one. so chongmeng cleverly asked jiayong to buy for him in the states and bring it back to sg since jiayong was coming back. chongmeng is so cong ming! :)
Thanks man...now mini greenie has both clothes to wear and food to eat. *grins* but i got worried that the lovely cover will get dirtied. heh. nonetheless, that made my day.
it was a great day too since i met up with angel hr to shop around. met some friends and met hz with ys too! 1st time bumping into them in town.... had so much fun with hr looking at clothes, stuff and people. and the last resort involving gggoh. heh. in the end, the bebe top looks funny. think uk people must be very lengthy coz all their clothes are damn long! topshop tank tops also pretty long...mango too... but asians, like me esp, have short torsos! (not that we have long legs too....) in any case.....saw a really nice black dress at zara!! off shoulder dress, have been wanting to get a off shoulder top for the longest of time. but costs 60 bucks. SO.... if i get through this saturday's interview, i'm going back to zara. *Grins*
bought a pencil skirt too. pretty! and comes along with 2 satin belts (one white and one cream coloured) though not very distinguishable. time to revamp my wardrobe to include more working wear. :)
can't wait to meet the sweeties tmr.
and the day after...
Thanks man...now mini greenie has both clothes to wear and food to eat. *grins* but i got worried that the lovely cover will get dirtied. heh. nonetheless, that made my day.
it was a great day too since i met up with angel hr to shop around. met some friends and met hz with ys too! 1st time bumping into them in town.... had so much fun with hr looking at clothes, stuff and people. and the last resort involving gggoh. heh. in the end, the bebe top looks funny. think uk people must be very lengthy coz all their clothes are damn long! topshop tank tops also pretty long...mango too... but asians, like me esp, have short torsos! (not that we have long legs too....) in any case.....saw a really nice black dress at zara!! off shoulder dress, have been wanting to get a off shoulder top for the longest of time. but costs 60 bucks. SO.... if i get through this saturday's interview, i'm going back to zara. *Grins*
bought a pencil skirt too. pretty! and comes along with 2 satin belts (one white and one cream coloured) though not very distinguishable. time to revamp my wardrobe to include more working wear. :)
can't wait to meet the sweeties tmr.
and the day after...
the lovely belkin cover!
(tiny words at the side of the picture)
Form-fit design: ensures durability and exact fit with genuine leather construction
Clear PVC Window: keeps your ipod protected and accessible at all times
Wrist Lanyard: carry your ipod mini wherever u go
Small Storage Pocket: easily holds receipts, notes or driver license
Easy Access Ports: Let you power and enjoy ur ipod mini on the go
evaluation/rating: excellent! lurrrrve it! and it's not sold in sg! didn't mind the colour clash coz now i have the best of both worlds. ;)
frustration...
i think i can nvr come to terms with my bf clubbing with his friends.
i'm such a petty woman. so typically irrational. always full of angst. Surprisingly, only when the above mentioned activity takes place, well, most of the time at least. It's so frustrating. for the few hours of that night, i won't be able to concentrate on anything. i'd do things to occupy my mind. (read: be couch potato, paint my nails, cut my split ends and the like) it's as if the angel and devil in me decides to bicker for endless hours.
the angel saying, "oh....it's just a guy's nights out. nothing wrong with that, i have my fair share of sweeties outing too. i trust he won't do anything silly that will make him regret for LIFE(okay...this sounds like the devil in the angel, vicious)"
"BUT," devil rebuts,"sweeties outings dun involve booze (lotsa it), smoke (enough to shorten your life by a week), and ogling at the female species (and/or the male) AND reaching home in the wee hours of the morning. WASTED.
so why can't guys have normal outings? why is it that when they meet, it must definitely involve booze? my brother is like that too. he likes to go cheong, drink beer, stout, vodka and the list goes on. my mum is worried but i told her not to be. (how ironic, considering the way i am behaving now) every guy his age does that. *ting ting!* Ah...now i know when the clubbing habit begins... when boys were only free during the weekends and all they could think of is to hit the clubs. dirty habits die hard.
The only time i enjoyed myself when clubbing with mr goh was when we 1st got to know each other (go figure). the rest of the times were just bad. i was inhaling the smoke while he was drowning in booze. and i wasn't allowed to drink coz apparently i can hold my breath better than the liquor.
sigh...guess i will be better off by being indifferent.
venus will never understand mars.
i'm such a petty woman. so typically irrational. always full of angst. Surprisingly, only when the above mentioned activity takes place, well, most of the time at least. It's so frustrating. for the few hours of that night, i won't be able to concentrate on anything. i'd do things to occupy my mind. (read: be couch potato, paint my nails, cut my split ends and the like) it's as if the angel and devil in me decides to bicker for endless hours.
the angel saying, "oh....it's just a guy's nights out. nothing wrong with that, i have my fair share of sweeties outing too. i trust he won't do anything silly that will make him regret for LIFE(okay...this sounds like the devil in the angel, vicious)"
"BUT," devil rebuts,"sweeties outings dun involve booze (lotsa it), smoke (enough to shorten your life by a week), and ogling at the female species (and/or the male) AND reaching home in the wee hours of the morning. WASTED.
so why can't guys have normal outings? why is it that when they meet, it must definitely involve booze? my brother is like that too. he likes to go cheong, drink beer, stout, vodka and the list goes on. my mum is worried but i told her not to be. (how ironic, considering the way i am behaving now) every guy his age does that. *ting ting!* Ah...now i know when the clubbing habit begins... when boys were only free during the weekends and all they could think of is to hit the clubs. dirty habits die hard.
The only time i enjoyed myself when clubbing with mr goh was when we 1st got to know each other (go figure). the rest of the times were just bad. i was inhaling the smoke while he was drowning in booze. and i wasn't allowed to drink coz apparently i can hold my breath better than the liquor.
sigh...guess i will be better off by being indifferent.
venus will never understand mars.
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
Bag of potatoes
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One day, a student asked his Master, " Sir, it is difficult to forgive and forget those who have wronged me, because they keep coming back to huant me." The master said to the student, "Whenever you cannot forget an incident that someone has hurt you before, you put a potato into ur haversack."The student agreed affirmatively.
3 months later, his load of potatoes got heavier and heavier. He got more frustrated and tired. Eventually, he even hurt his back. He asked the master again, "What can i learn from carrying all these potatoes? Now i'm no different from a dead man. I'll never forgive what u have made me done" With that, another potato was added and he broke his neck and died.
"You stupid fool." the master thought to himself.
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Well, i'm sure all my friends are all quick enough to catch that. :)
in case some didn't, the moral of the story was that when you are able to leave everything behind and move forward, you will not be burdened by the past. well, more specifically, the not-so-welcomed past.
I've moved back home. :) and i'm glad that i've managed to throw away things which i have kept til now. things i should have thrown earlier since they don't matter now. the memories are still there, though not very vivid... but the physical stuff are gone. together with the emotional burden i guess.
and talk about forgive and forget... i think most pp forgive...but nvr forget. it may not be a bad thing afterall. not forgetting is not the same as bearing a grudge. sometimes, the memory is just there. cached in the mind. waiting to be uncovered some day. but somehow for me...i seem to forget quite a lot of stuff. i read a letter which hr wrote me while unpacking the stuff at home... there she mentioned about an incident after prelims (which i really do not remember, so no worries, hr!) Another one was when i found the "yoke" list after like 4 yrs! kept between pages of a book. point is... i'm scared that i'm forgetting too many things. things which are important to me and have definitely left a deep impression in my mind before. i think i live and i forget sometimes.
so, conclusion is, i'm going to stay around people who are important to me, to be there for them, there with them. in that case, i can't possibly forget right? i know it sounds very weird and probably doesn't make sense. should probably go to bed now and hopefully, i won't forget what's happened today.
One day, a student asked his Master, " Sir, it is difficult to forgive and forget those who have wronged me, because they keep coming back to huant me." The master said to the student, "Whenever you cannot forget an incident that someone has hurt you before, you put a potato into ur haversack."The student agreed affirmatively.
3 months later, his load of potatoes got heavier and heavier. He got more frustrated and tired. Eventually, he even hurt his back. He asked the master again, "What can i learn from carrying all these potatoes? Now i'm no different from a dead man. I'll never forgive what u have made me done" With that, another potato was added and he broke his neck and died.
"You stupid fool." the master thought to himself.
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Well, i'm sure all my friends are all quick enough to catch that. :)
in case some didn't, the moral of the story was that when you are able to leave everything behind and move forward, you will not be burdened by the past. well, more specifically, the not-so-welcomed past.
I've moved back home. :) and i'm glad that i've managed to throw away things which i have kept til now. things i should have thrown earlier since they don't matter now. the memories are still there, though not very vivid... but the physical stuff are gone. together with the emotional burden i guess.
and talk about forgive and forget... i think most pp forgive...but nvr forget. it may not be a bad thing afterall. not forgetting is not the same as bearing a grudge. sometimes, the memory is just there. cached in the mind. waiting to be uncovered some day. but somehow for me...i seem to forget quite a lot of stuff. i read a letter which hr wrote me while unpacking the stuff at home... there she mentioned about an incident after prelims (which i really do not remember, so no worries, hr!) Another one was when i found the "yoke" list after like 4 yrs! kept between pages of a book. point is... i'm scared that i'm forgetting too many things. things which are important to me and have definitely left a deep impression in my mind before. i think i live and i forget sometimes.
so, conclusion is, i'm going to stay around people who are important to me, to be there for them, there with them. in that case, i can't possibly forget right? i know it sounds very weird and probably doesn't make sense. should probably go to bed now and hopefully, i won't forget what's happened today.
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